Because of you....

I want to tell you guys that I suddenly feel so scared and only God knows how to state my scared feelings is about losing a friend and friends. I’m feeling so anxiety and concern about it. I hope 2010 I won’t lose anymore friends and having more plenty of friends too. I felt like because of what happened in the past is my fault but I’m truly not blame myself because is not my fault either. Who started first? And don't take too offense because you take the offense our friendship ruin. Somehow I felt that three of you are stupid either. If you’d want to friends with me why don’t you just settle the problem slowly? But you didn’t, you come to me and scolded me without hearing my explanation and saying I was lying. Oh come on la, you’re so immature and so sensitive and now just because of you, everyone seems not to friends me anymore.  Then, I said to you just because of you some of your friends which is my friends don’t want to friends me anymore and you can just said this “that’s up to them whether they want to friends you or not” How could you said that! Of course, I’m blaming you because you talked bad things about me at them and it’ll influence them. What if I do the same things too? Now I want you to know, when I was fighting with you I’ve had never insulted you even once I only said that you’re sensitive. After the fight, I started to hate you even more because you insulted me. So, you owe me! One day, I’ll bring the past back and state everything what you did. You know why? You’re too much you asked me to state all my guilt to you. But maybe I won’t do that. I won’t forgive you! I’ll never forget what you did. I don’t hold grudges.